a stargirl's thoughts

No more happy things...

My Dad died 2 weeks ago today.
I don't really know how to cope with it, I'm trying to get through every day.
I've flown back to Australia to be with my Mum & sister
It still feels so unreal.

I miss him so much, he was my hero, he gave me so much love and support

Death is the worst heartbreak ever.

• Tori's A Piano: The Collection cd set
• seeing Neil Gaiman give a reading from his new book Fragile Things
• pretty mix cds
• YouTube (!)
• curling up with an electric blanket and reading Ruby by Francesca Lia Block
• sushi from Wasabi
• pretty autumn weather (except when it rains in my lunchtime...)
• finding cheap clothes that fit me (yay, kids department!)
• downloading Tori bootlegs that I don't yet have

I haven't been so good with keeping up to date with this; where the heck did August go?

Things I love right now:

• my love
• listening to musical theatre soundtracks and being a Broadway geek
• receiving Amazon orders... and any other real mail!
  
• "V for Vendetta" (and Natalie Portman)
• text messages from him that make me melt

• oven pizzas
• Top Gear
  
• the cooler weather (!)
• Linkin Park
• cuddles all weekend and his sweetness
• resolving issues (or working towards resolving them...)
  

• cheese omelettes
• cold lemonade
• finally getting unpacked (!!)
• catching up on emails (at last...)
• fashion magazines
• starting to get to know housemates
• ...finding balance
  

• cuddles with him
• my new room in London
• eel sushi
• Lily Allen's album
• real mail
• anything from Lush
• reading The Metro newspaper every morning from the tube station
• text messages from my sister

I always start these journal/community type pages, and then never update them; let's see if this one is any different. I jumped on the bandwagon like everyone else on my LJ friend's list; I can never resist something new to play around with.

I think I'm going to keep this as a "positives journal" - a place to record (regularly) the good things, the things worth remembering, the little things that make a difference. It's so easy to lose sight of those things, especially in a big city like London where everything is rushrushrush, but I need to remember. I need to stop, breathe, and focus on the small things that remind me how wonderful it is to be here, to be alive.

So... let's see how long I can keep this up for.